Every strange city, there is a strong sense of outsiders, of course, to the same city where Xiaoqian. Every time I have a stronged hardy feeling that, yes, that makes it difficult to accept the strangeness.
but I always kind of tough guy, I want to do, I will insist to try, although the results would make me sad. And Xiao Qian with more than a year, we passed through the southern spring, ushered us out of the school's first summer and last summer. I am a very ordinary person, of course, the story of me and Xiao Qian is also very ordinary. But for the lovers, each person's heart has its own touching memories of that period, I am no exception.
When I leave the campus the moment, I really want to cry, want to cry! My innocence would become a campus of the times have passed, and I love the people will fall back on her city. In my vision began to blur, I looked up, I remembered last night and she agreed,
"We enjoy the cry tonight, tomorrow who are not allowed to cry!"
So I held her hand, waiting for the car to. My eyes are all on her, though I do not think so, my dorm buddies and boss are. Back home, the heart empty, nothing, nothing could hold, suddenly felt the familiar strange good home. Looking at her Tiantiandixiao the photos, I finally could not resist, and tears did not listen to flow.
two months in the home we used to quarrel, perhaps I too sensitive, I may have too low self-esteem, I really feel that after she and I never, from the day I step on campus onwards. Mind is that mean third grade math teacher acrid sarcasm, "you do not read the material on their own Sa Paoniao look in!!! First pointed face and wide, also came to study with monkeys!" Mental inferiority is probably a dig in again and again formed. So every time I called could not find her will be worried, standing concern, but when she simply can not hear the phone rang to tell me I'll be very angry when the result is a cold, though I know she cried it hurts my heart will be painful, but once again her tears.
Maybe she did not know, she really do not know, I and she was really two people in the world! However, I still believe that people would love to understand each other's ideas, so I can not let her know that I am not happy, can not let her worry about me, can not let her think that I can not give her a sense of security. Finally, I went to her city to find her, of course, but also to interview, like a long time, but the thought of her, all the ideas are sidelined up. Is a phrase in my mind the words of old-fashioned self-motivation: just one step away from success, do not give up, to work harder!
When I settled himself when elated, I really could not find any other adjectives to describe my excitement, I loved one from a good well near past, there will not be finished, phone but could not meet a pity! Those days the mood is really indescribable, for the first time in her neighborhood wander, sweet heart, This is my beloved people often take up, a step I have the potential ofed hardy kids each step in her left breath, the thought suddenly thought would giggle. When I waited a long time had not seen her, I began to earth now! Why am I picking this? I know because I too care about her, even if she was to me a little cold, I would strongly feel, and proud of my language will not allow me to say it, so I just proceeded as fat with temper. The ferocity of elementary school math teacher to put me out of the classroom, I have not cried, you want me to suck? I have chosen to do a good job for you to see!
to meet her after dinner there are a lot of time, so, I was in this strange city aimlessly forward. Traversed unfamiliar building, looking at different dressed stranger, suddenly felt really good life, wonderful! Some people may pass this life just is that, while there are so few people will quietly into your life and become a part of your memory. Fate can be so strange a few years ago two people walking together, of course, can make a pair of lovers vows sub thing. Here, I suddenly thought of that cold, air from the soles of the feet has been pounced chest, although I was still walking under the hot sun in summer. I hurried to go to where the walk, I'm so afraid of this gripping the cold.
work is not smug, with consecutive night, more people feel restless. Wholeheartedly to pay a person, he would want, of course, I do too, and I even more strongly, but I really feel her body with a tiny bit less than she paid. She often talks about the mother, I know she needs courage, I know that she caught in the middle of the difficulties of lover and mother, but I just can not help but temper, can not satisfy her I do it? Like her mother said, as I have no ambition, I am not a local it? I am reminded of the school, I really had to leave my lovely campus! Campus lovers worried parents see it? Worried about the future prosperous it? Account where you will be worried about?
that time really tired ah, good days are a couple of hours sleep a night and ran to see her. Her company I was shopping near the downstairs several times, but I still feel good stranger, stop on the road next to the registration number of all tell me, I do not belong to the city. Why is she always so Mana? Does she not know that our time together just less than two hours on it? Every time I lose my temper, I really do not want to, and should be said that I had better be able to see her happy, but I share that strong sense of inferiority bad things again and again. Do I really could not tell her that I really care about her well, and I afraid of losing her, afraid of in this strange city, the only people who have become familiar strange? I know I can not say it, I can not let her think I was so attached to her, can not let her laugh at me.
quarrel again and again, I'm so tired ah, I know she is more tired and more uncomfortable, do we really, as I thought it would it? Thus, we make it a little faster now! I decided to leave her! While dragging, the results we are really broke up. That day I lay in bed, not move, but for my mind still fluttering her smile, I really doubt that he is not dead.
I thought of leaving the city, but I was reluctant to leave the place with her breathing! So I am very contradictory, and later met with her hand, she cried, my heart was bleeding, like knife feel. Perhaps like me, who does not deserve her own, not worthy of a happy, go back the way I said to myself, I can not let her tears, so I can not let her see me! But I think of her again and again, want to see her, so I again and again in her company after work downstairs, wandering near her home. Each secretly watched her, tears would stream down quietly, not my day around her was the same, Tiantiandexiao, talking happily and companion, her life is no point So change. I suddenly realized that the way of life, she and I are just a passing each other in life, passing, we'll sub something.
that night she told me she loved me, I really do not feel anything, is that boy? I do not know, I do not want to know. That was the last time I was hanging around because I suddenly felt really weak, she is so brave, and I was wandering between the campus and the community, perhaps I really have to courage, to face such a Reality: I left the innocence of the campus, and I stepped into a society!
are not in pain again and again to mature faster? If so, I would never grow up. Life is not really to again and again and reality will be the perfect fusion? If so, I would rather my life be a bit of a flaw.ed hardy clothes Life is not only a dazzling splendor so? If it is, I think I have become of that once glorious past, because she will no longer appear in my life.